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2012-02-01T08:14:00.000+08:00

January came too fast and went too fast....and now is already in FEBRUARY! :O
this year's CNY wasn't so bad...woke up early..got myself prepared and ready to go bai nian at my ah ma's place..we are always the last family to go up each year...but this year...we weren't the last anymore! :D great improvement! haha! ah ma's place is always the first place we go..becos we are only living 7 stairs apart... :)
next was dad's side relative...it seems like each year we are going to different house to bai nian...but it always revolve around TPY..which i dunnoe why...maybe my dad's side they all just love living around TPY? LOLS!
and the last stop we went was mum's auntie's place...it's been a long long time since i have been there....i think i went there when i was a kid? in the state that i was still so innocent and idiotic maybe? haha! but now...all grown up...with a complicated mind...LOLS!

this year's CNY was kinda different...becos i spent chu xi at bf place playing mahjong with he's bro and mum..and i lost 20plus bucks to his mum...what a bad start... :(
then...bb sent me home early in the morning while he headed for work...
poor thing..still gonna work on chu yi..
After finish all the visiting...went back to bb place..
caught " The Viral Factor" we didn't check the tickets properly...and we actually got the ticket for the wrong timing...luckily the seats that we took wasn't taken...if not..it will be super malu !
stayed over at bb place after movie..wanted to go home but he didn't allow me to...was super angry thou..but...nvm..i shall endure that!

chu er..bb got to work..initially..he was suppose to send me home...but..he's granny wanted to play mahjong and just nice short of one ka...so..i was somehow..forced to stay...stayed at bb place without him around felt so weird...luckily he's fam was not too bad...in the end..won 30 bucks from he's granny...haha!
went home to change..then head over to he's dad's side relatives...(he's cousins place) OMG! he's cousin were all so old! and he's nephews were all of my age...and he was considered the youngest among them...i think he's eldest cousin should be the same age as my youngest uncle already loh! House visiting are always the boring thing to do...we didn't stay long...and headed down to punggol to meet gary for snooker...then dragonfly for some drinks...after that he sent me home..FINALLY! i could get to lay on my very own cozy bed! :D

chu san...BORING! gotta start working at dollhouse as cashier all the way till this sunday.. :( no off day at all...nvm! for the money i shall endure this 2 coming weeks! :)

the last week was quite a week to me thou...
knew quite a few new frens..
had...some dinner dates...that i haven't been having for quite sometime...

met him for dinner last Monday and asked him what he wanted for V day and whether he want to celebrate with me...but..all he could gave me was rubbish answers...as if he doesn't want to celebrate at all not even buying V day present for each other...hais! seriously...:(
oh well~ anyway..i will be working all the way till the eve of V day...
let's see who's the sweetest guy that will send me flowers on Vday or even eve of V day! :)

all i ever wanted was someone who truly loves and dotes me...
trust me and love me for who i am....
MY WISH!
a beautiful and fruitful FEBRUARY! :D

2012-01-09T11:16:00.000+08:00

January Celebrations!

2nd January
Mummy's b'day celebration at ah yat (as usual) for dim sum
and we bought a very special cake for her this year....

the box was so nice and is hot pink! i love the box damn alot...the colour...and the super big wordings...

tada! that's our present for our lovely mummy! is actually a mixture of mixed fruit tarts and strawberry tiramisu because the shop doesn't allow us to buy a whole 11 inch of the tart...so we bought it in slices to make it a whole...with 2 different flavours..aren't we smart?!..haha..

Time for the group photos!
the NG's family..with mama, ah yi and my cousin..

And...the 1st 2012 NG's family portrait....LOLS!

and the 2nd one....

kanna caught using the phone while eating...haha!

And my face SERIOUSLY look SO FAT in this one! T.T

The COUSINS! time really flies....we were so young then....and now...we are all grown ups!

6th January

celebrated wai's 21st b'day...
too bad yan can't celebrate with us this year...but still there will be more years ahead that we could celebrate together! :D

met ting to buy her present before meeting wai...
these was her pick from the web and guess which one was her final choice?

And...that's her pick! mad chio right?

i wish i had one too! but that's the last piece and that was meant to be her present...

After shopping the whole of orchard road...is really whole of orchard road okay! from one end to the other...and that day my leg was damn pain! all thanks to the heels that i wore that day! :(

It's time for dinner!
and we had our dinner at a Victorian cafe/restaurant?( can't really figure it out...) of b'day gal's choice
the seats there was really comfortable...
and...i think this place is kinda a hot spot for many people...because by the time we were done with our dinner...there was already a long queue waiting outside...
one reason being...the restaurant was kinda small to...
there's only like?!...8-10 tables? so...maybe...it is more ideal for small groups to go...

had the cakes there for dessert and her b'day cake....

the cakes were highly recommended by her...but...i wasn't really into the cakes...

i think i am more into their teas and spaghetti because i had their seafood gratin and it wasn't that nice..

and then...it was time for bill...
we were kinda stunned that the waitress actually brought over a box when we called for bill...
and we all thought it was a box filled with some sweet or something while waiting for the bill..
and..haha! guess what?...the bill was actually in that box! how unique was that!

during the dinner...i kept talking about the ring...
and i actually thought of getting it when i was getting her present...
but...there wasn't my size at the taka...
so...we went to the outlet at mandarin gallery
and i got the RING!

the MOST EXPENSIVE ACCESSORY i ever got for myself...
haha...
well...is a new start...so i think i should get use to spending alittle more on stuff that i like than on FOOD!
haha!

i really LOVE the ring! :)

i think i really should get a camera asap!
so i dun have to wait for people to upload the pictures...
and end up having no pictures to blog about... :( BORING!

chinese new year is coming!
but...i dun have the mood to celebrate at all leh!
and i haven't got any new year clothes at all! :(

2012-01-03T06:59:00.001+08:00

i felt so left out...after looking through the pictures of my used-to-be-good-friends posting outing photos together....
and the reason why i am left out? i can't figure it out...maybe..they have long forgotten about me because i always had to work whether they asked me out...or simply...i am no longer they "good friends" anymore?!..or i have never been part of them...hais...

friends come and go...but..who are the ones who are truly there for you as and when you needed them?
and who are the ones who truly stays with you...no matter what?... hardly any...

can't really blame them too...because...i wasn't a good friend in the first place...
and...i have long regard money as my best friend...because when i am happy i can use it to buy anything i want...and when i am sad..i can also use it to buy people's time to accompany me...

and...i have a so not romantic and not caring bf at all... T.T
i know he's been busy with he's best friend's wedding...but..izit really that busy that he couldn't talk to me on the phone for at least a 10 mins?
sometimes i wonder....why have i chosen him over someone who loves me more than he love himself?
hais...all i could say....love is blind...and i am such a bitch! because i wouldn't be touched by any sweet actions made by any guy...my heart is the one that choose the "ideal partner" for me...
WHATEVER!

was discussing about i am gonna celebrate my 21st at lunch today...
so many ideas were suggested..
but...seriously...getting a guest list out of me?!....
i seriously have no idea who i want to invite...
maybe...i should just stick to my own plan.......

2012-01-02T10:36:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
and.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

gonna celebrate my mum's b'day at ah yit restaurant later...
before getting ready for the lunch...shall list down my resolution for 2012...
thou i couldn't really complete what's on my list for 2011...
but...i really do hope...from today onwards..i will try my very best to achieve whatever i have listed here!
and here we go.....

1. to SLIM DOWN! i really and seriously wanna get rid of the excess fats on my thighs! and this time with much determination...i will succeed! hohoho~

2. to COMPLETE my dioplma without failing anymore modules! seriously...i had enough of failing of modules...i studied so hard for HR and marketing...but ended up i failed both and couldn't make it to sem 4 with the rest of them...and which means...i gonna study for another 2 months before graduating from sim....hais... so this is a must do thing for me!

3. to get a camera before my b'day... yay! i shaould have gotten it a long time ago...but...somehow or rather...i didn't...hahah but never mind...i will get one once i got my bonus from work! and hopefully it will be in time for my 21st! :)

4. have a wonderful 21st bday! becos it only happens once in a life time...so i hope...i can make it wonderful?!...but i dunnoe how...LOLS! still thinking... but i really hope it will be great! :D

5. Last but not least....i dun wanna be alone anymore....i want a stable relationship with the guy i am with...although i might not define what's true love and if he is really the one i really want in my life...but i feel comfortable when i am with him...so this time round...i really give the best i could give...so that i could experience what a relationship is all about!

that's all for now....
i should start preparing for the lunch now!

i think i should blog more often...cos...i kinda forgot how i spent my 2011...hahahah....
2012 is a new start...and i shall live it the new way i want it to be! :)

2011-12-04T09:24:00.001+08:00

Finally! exams are over...and school holidays are here! :)
which means...this year is coming to an end....
suddenly i feel that i am so much older once again..
and...next year i will be celebrating my 21st...
dunnoe whether i wanna celebrate here in sg with friends...
or..i will just get an air ticket to somewhere i wanna go to...
somewhere where no one knows me... :)
i will going back to chijmes to work..
thou i didn't really want to work there...
but...i still couldn't find a suitable job that allows me to work and study at the same time...
so...all i can do now is...endure...work till i complete my DMS course then i will go get a better job...
still thinking if i should continue studying after DMS...cause it seems like i am not the study type...hais...
whatever....

anyway xin intro me this song...
"The One That Got Away"
at first it wasn't that nice...but after listening twice or more....the song kinda bring what it meant to be across...

and this mtv definitely suits this song!
and after watching this mv...my love for katy perry is getting deeper and deeper...♥

2011-12-01T02:38:00.001+08:00

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

this movie reminds of you and me..

2 years back...

the days we went out together...

the days you tried telling me how much you like me...

the times when i pop questions like... "why me?"

and the childish acts you did that i somehow thought was cute...

BUT...all ended after we got together...

and separated eventually....

maybe...our story was meant to be like this...

what if...i did accept you..

will you continue to woo me?

if...our story gonna rewrite...

will you be like that main actor in the movie?

continue to like me no matter what?

maybe all these only happens in movies like this......

anyway..柯震東 damn CUTE! I LIKE! :)

OMG! and guess what?!...he's same age as me!
even younger than me!
alright alright...stop the flower idiot thingy already...
shall go to bed now....
still got to wake up early tml... :(

ohh! and happy first day of DECEMBER!
finally another new month!
and this year is coming to an end in 31 days!

2011-11-30T03:36:00.001+08:00

there's 101 things we all want in life...but...there's only thing we can never get...simplicity.

human's feelings are the least expected ones...
they can make you feel like wanting...
but..at times...you just feel that is so annoying to get over something that you can never get....

today's hr paper was not within my expectation...
though i did told my friends to focus on the topic on stress..
cause we were all kinda stress out when we were giving our last shots revising for today's paper...
hais...i could i even think so into depth when the questions asked were so direct?!..
i lost marks not because i didn't know....
but...because too much information was in my head...
and i actually jumbled them all up...
and that shows what?
i wasn't in the right mind when i was doing the paper... :(
and i gave up on it an hour earlier than the given duration...
hais...didn't pin much hopes on the hr results...
cause our CA results is still under pending...
and all i can do now is to pray hard that i can make it....even if it's just making it to the border line...

flare my anger on Jacky just now...
i know i shouldn't...because he's just being nice by waking me up to study for my paper...
but...i took it otherwise...
thinking that he shouldn't bother about me...
and...giving me more time to sleep...
but...who knows...my body thinks otherwise too...
i am wide awake now...
can't get back to sleep anymore....and it's going haywire cause it isn't working the same way it did anymore...
it is resisting the 12 hours sleep...

shall start on marketing now...because i haven't even started...and my paper is on friday..
WOW~ how nice.. :(

2011-11-29T02:52:00.000+08:00

for once...i felt so stress over exams..i guess..
i couldn't sleep and all i ever wanted to do was for you by my side...
i called you...telling that i am stress and hinting that to meet you or maybe spent the night over at your place...
but i guess i was wrong...
you never wanted me back...
you only wanted someone to accompany you after you had some alcohol in you...
and that the only choice or the only stupid person you could find was me...
the most stupid one...
the theory is always like that...
you have people going after you...
but...you don't like what available for you...
but instead...you chose the one that hurt you the most again and again...
but still....you will still go back to the same person....
that's reality...and this is how normal people like me reacts to...

2011-11-28T10:23:00.000+08:00

LIKE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

yup...like what the title states...i received 2 presents from two different people yesterday....
LOLS!
the first one was 999 stars! OMG! i know i should be tearing now...but i didn't and i don't how and why the hell the guy did all those 999 stars just because i told him my ex folded 100 stars for me...-.-
seriously...normal girls will find it touching...but for me...no feeling leh...

and the second one was from another guy...
i don't why he keep buying soft toys for me...
maybe he tot i am like those xiao mei mei who are so fascinated with soft toys....
but...sorry boy...i don't...is just not me to receive those soft toys...
i rather you give me the money...
hahahahahhaha.....
okay...enough of the presents....

been studying since 10plus last night at ECP mac...
and i am back now...bathe...preparing to go to school and continue on my revision...
OMG!...one week really past damn fast!
and tml is my first paper already... :(
good luck to me!
and i hope i will score well for all the papers since i am so prepared for almost all of them.... :)

anyway...saw a post on fb which was posted by my aunt that she's getting a divorce with my uncle...
i don't understand...why you guys wanna get married in the first place...
having 4 little boys...
and yet...now you guys wanna get a divorce?!...
i might not know the situation between the two of them...
but...seriously have they thought through the whole picture?
i know marriage is between two people...
but...after you have kids...is another different story again..
have you guys ever thought how the kids will be brought up?
being separated (if that ever happens)
being brought up in a single family?
the cruel reality of not having a proper family?
seriously...if adults are so selfish in the first place...why get married? why have kids...
if...i were to have a divorce....i rather not have a marriage..not have children in the first place before i really make sure that he's the one and only guy that i want to spend the rest of my life with!

i am so angry with the both of them now! but...as a kid what can i say when the adults can't even figure this out themselves!

2011-11-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE STRESSING ME OUT!!!!!..... :(
for the very first time i am so stress over exams...and is only 4 papers compare to the days i was preparing for 7 subjects for o levels... :( i really hope whatever i am studying for really can help score high in this coming exams...

another thing that is stressing me out is money...
seriously..my mum told me that i can count on her for that...
so i don't have to work and concentrate studying...
but...she haven't been giving me allowance since the day she left for hk and until today she's back..
ask her to help me pay for my phone bills first...
i don't think she even did...
and i asking too much?...
i didn't ask her 100 bucks a day leh...
and now i have to get back to people and beg for a job...
if i knew this gonna happen i might as well work for 1 or 2 years first before studying using my own money so that i don't have to count on her....-.-
and i know is parent's responsibilities to pay for their child's education...
but...she should have told me that she can't afford my school fees...
and i can go out and earn for it what?
is not like i don't have the capability in doing so?
now that i wanna drop also not right?!...hais...
seriously...no one can ever help me loh...
not even friends...
i know is my fault for borrowing money...
and is not like i am not gonna return...is just that i still cannot find any time to earn back the amount to return...
is just my fault!
all my fault for the impulsive act which i have always been....

whatever lah!
i don't wanna care anymore...
all i need to do now is to study for the coming exams and get rid of it asap!

2011-11-25T15:12:00.003+08:00

OKAY! i am finally done with the editing of my blogskin...

and it kinda remind me..how long this blog have been neglected and how dead it is...

so...from today onward i am so gonna bring it back alive once again...

i dunnoe if any of you still reading...

but still if i have the time to...i will blog about the things that happened...

so...start with last wed...

LADIES' NIGHT!

it's been awhile since i went to club after all the busy schooling and working days....

i didn't have time to club until this week...which supposed to be my study week...

and i should have been studying instead of...you know..going to clubs...blogging like now....okay lah..i am heading out to study later...cause seriously...i can't stop myself from being distracted by stuff at home.... :(

so...we went MINK @ pan pacific... some altars club filled with alot of ang mos...but none of them did attract me...hais...well...the songs there still not that bad...

was on the podium the whole night...then some random guys jio us to nana...

so...we went...with the thoughts that they were one of our friend's group of friends...wow! amazing..and only that we know the truth the next day...

and i was dead drunk at nana...and did something stupid...

lying on the floor...OMG! total disgrace! :(

alright....enough of the embarrassed stuffs...pictures of the pretty girls i went with that night! :D

(pictures credits to wenn...)

and that...concludes the night...i died at nana...

and my dad actually carried me into my room...

and the next door...got nagging from both mum and dad....

PS: i realized that my skin tone was uneven that night! shit! :( was trying to cover my dark circles...end up look like highlighting my panda eyes... :(

Last night...watched breaking dawn part I.

The movie was kinda draggy...and i dunnoe why there's a need for them to break it into two parts..-.-

seriously...maybe they should just cut short the honeymoon part...

only that beautiful villa by the beach that attracts me...nothing else...

not even the part that they are making love...-.-

ohhh....and today is FRIDAY!!!

and poor me...i can't get to enjoy...only have to study study and study.... :(

exams next tue.... :(

i really need to work hard! if not...i think i will just have to go and bang my head for failing any of the module!

Alright~~~ signing off...

2011-11-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes it just make me feel so pathetic that i had to blog to speak out what's hiding inside me...

i couldn't talk to anyone... why?

because my pride was too high?

or...maybe i feel that people judge...and i dun wanna be judged..therefore..i didn't want anyone to know what's wrong with me?

humans are complex creature in this world....because...part of them wants people to notice them, care for them, but...part of them..doesn't want people to have a "special vision" upon us...

maybe...i am such kind of person and therefore...i chose to blog than to talk to someone i could trust...

seriously..i don't why...you knew that i didn't like you wearing my clothes...

using my stuff without asking me for my permission....

but yet...you still want to do it your own way...

i know...i do wear a couple of your clothes because of some occasion that i needed something new to wear...

and since you had so many new dresses after coming back from your shopping trip...can't you just lend me...and i did put off a little of my petty attitude by allowing you to wear mine in return...but seriously, even pajamas you also have to wear mine? dun you have your own?

you always twits that how generous you were...how different you were...

but....seriously...is this how you show your generosity and kindness?!....i really don't get it...

and...when i mention that you wearing my stuff you would talk back by saying that me too....but....come on lah...you know i hardly wear your clothes because they weren't my style at all....

and as for mine...i always goes for the simple and pleasant looking ones...

and the truth is...i am fatter than you...and you know that i couldn't wear some of your clothes...but you could fit into all of mine...so..who's the generous one instead?!...

and i really feel that when someone started out to be at the losing end...they can never gain or win any recognition again....because to me...i am already marked as the laziest at home...so whenever i do something, no one at home will ever believe that it was me...i was the one...because..human are stubborn creatures...and once they record what kind of person you are the last time...the impression of you will be there like forever...no way could you amend how people look at you...because they don't believe that some people could change for the better...and as for me...i am always marked at my worst...so.no matter how hard i try to overcome or to convinces people in believe that i have changed...my past image will stay vividly in their mind.

2011-10-03T06:54:00.000+08:00

i am not the perfect sister you can look up to...

you are stronger in every things compare to me...

the words...that came out from your mouth..

"i dun need a sister like you!"

hurts me deep enough than anything else...

like you stabbing a knife right thru my heart...

we were once so close like best friends...

and you were always the only one that i thought i could confess everything to...

someone who truly understands how i feel...

someone who can advice me on the stuff that i sometimes cant figure out on my own...

but...as time passes...

as we are all grown up....

you started drifting far far away from me....

to be with your friends who could understand you much better than i do...

but...i will still remain there...

as someone who you think will quarrel with you over the matter that you used my stuff...

wearing your clothes...

do you know...

i am so affected that you bought presents for the rest of the family members except me?

it just shows that...i dun belong in this family at all...

you told me...you bought clothes that we could share....

but...you know what? is not the quantity of the gift...

is the heart of buying a gift...

the size,the amount, the item...it doesn't matters at all....

what matters most to me...is whether you have the heart....

if you happen to read this....this is all i wanna say...

i care for you more than anyone else will..

whenever you didn't come home...

i am more worried than anyone else...

to you...i am always picking up a fight with you...

is okay you dun wan to acknowledge such a sister like me...

because i am such a failure to be one....

i am a disgrace to you...

just treat me like a stranger whatever you want to...

i will never blame you...because i brought all these to myself...

2011-09-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

it was the biggest mistake ever!

all along i knew us being together was a mistake..
but...why do i still go back to you when i have already made a decision not to?
becos..i really do love you for who you are?
becos...you are good at words?
becos...i was soft hearted?

all i ever wanted was someone who can accompany me when i needed someone...
someone who can talk to me when i needed one..
someone who can make me happy when i am feeling low..
someone who can take a stroll with me when i needed one...

you make me feel that i was alone when i have someone to go to...
you make me never to trust love again..
never to believe in anyone anymore....
never to believe in simple happiness....
never ever....

will i fall in love ever...

2011-08-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

am i having too much expectations on him?

Just because he wasn't treating the ways others treat me like before?

is it better if i just let go of it?

will i feel better after that?

but...if i do...i will be mark as a bad person...

why do i have so many worries?

what have i serious become?

life is getting bored a year after another......

hais....

2011-08-24T17:46:00.002+08:00

IF I DIE YOUNG

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town says he'll, love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a gonner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls

2011-08-24T17:42:00.000+08:00

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Love, Love, Love, Love, Love
Giving me
Love, Love, Love
More than I ever need

Love, you're so distracting
Am I overreacting, For feeling this way
And ever, since I met ya, I can't keep my attention
And you are to blame

Chorus
Your love's a permanent distraction, a perfect interaction
a feeling so extreme
I lost my appetite to eat, and I barely get to sleep
Cause you're even in my dreams
And I thought that I was strong but I knew that all along,
this was out of my control
So I fell into your hands, and i don't know where we'll land,
I'm just going with the flow

Love, Love, Love, Love, Love

Somedays, I want to run away
This feels so perfect, it's breaking my heart
Yeah we could, we could stay here happy
Or after summer, be two worlds apart

Chorus
Your love's a permanent distraction, a perfect interaction
a feeling so extreme
I lost my appetite to eat, and I barely get to sleep
Cause you're even in my dreams
And I thought that I was strong but I knew that all along
his was out of my control
So I fell into your hands, and i don't know where we'll land
I'm just going with the flow

Giving me, Love Love Love, Love Love
More than i ever need
Giving me Love Love Love

Your Love, is bigger than a rain cloud
It covered up my whole skies
It's filling up my heart,
My heart with
Love, Love, Love, Love, Love
More than I ever need
giving me
Love, Love, Love

Chorus
Your love's a permanent distraction, a perfect interaction
a feeling so extreme
I lost my appetite to eat, and I barely get to sleep
Cause you're even in my dreams
And I thought that I was strong but I knew that all along,
this was out of my control
So I fell into your hands, and i don't know where we'll land,
I'm just going with the flow

Giving me
Love, Love, Love, Love, Love
More than I ever need

End of sem 2!

2011-08-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

FINALLY SEM 2 ENDED!
i have been hoping that this torturing semester ends ASAP...
and finally today the last lesson ended and CAs results are out...
kinda disappointed with my biz comm results and quite surprise with my FA and biz stats results...
though i feel that my biz stats was downgraded by one grade due to the group thingy...oh well...

luckily i didn't fail...so not too bad....
anyway...i will guarantee plus chop! that i will study damn hard for biz comm...
and as for FA...i will try my very best to remain with this result....hahah...
alright! counting down 9 more days to exams!
JIA YOU JIA YOU !
back to studying FA now! :)

2011-08-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY OR NOT?!

this night was suppose to be a celebration/grieving drinking session i don't know seriously....
i don't know whether i am suppose to be happy that i can finally let you out of my life..and continue on without you...
but...a part of me have already got used to having you in my life...
but...i do foresee that..such happiness would never last...

still....i made up my mind...to be alone...so i hope..you do understand....
anyway...it was a pretty pleasant night hanging out with my busy GFs...

2011-08-19T13:26:00.001+08:00

"Love is what you make it; it can be great, it can be horrible, it can make you, it can break you."

i hate it...i thought i had the freedom to choose to be with anyone i want to...but...you keep making my decision to be YOU! have you ever care about how i think? what you want? seriously...you think that such a relationship will last forever? TO ME...is NEVER! because of you people around...makes me think that...love is no longer something i wanna crave for....something i am anticipating on....

2011-08-17T07:16:00.000+08:00

just came back from breakfast with my colleagues... :)
the whole topic was all about thailand..talking about it already made me got the feel to go already...
OMG! BUT! I got no money now... :( so have to wait till i have save enough money which allows me to shop till drop...then i can go... :) well...this whole week have been so far so good....got back my feed backs for the CAs...most of them are only average...except for my individual stats...cos its done by "him".. hais.....

anyway...here's the pictures we took on our presentation day...
and for the very first time i am wearing so formal...
but...my lecturer still thinks that my skirt is too short..
non-biz like?!...-.-
i tot this was the longest skirt i ever wore man...
haha...

alright! that's all for today...
gotta go get ready for school now...
tata!~~~~

2011-08-10T02:47:00.000+08:00

OMG! its been a month since i lasted blog!!...
anyway...life's still the same...nothing interesting happens...
expect for the part that...omg-reality-really-is-cruel-in-its-own-way happened...
well...is kinda..my fault which i dun think was my fault...
and i really didn't know who i can really talk to now..
or even trust on...
hais...
so...whoever reading this...you are just suay that you had to come across this...

anyway...this is what happens...
i was suppose to do a group project with my group mates...which happens to be my "close frens" in school...
and the story goes...one fine afternoon...i woke up..and realise that E actually texted me and told me that they had to give me a different percentage due to the fact that i did not do anything for the project..or rather my participation was rather low...and becos one bitch commented that even if you guys are with a group of close frens..you guys should grade them fairly?!...am i suppose to said that?!...
and yes.. my "close frens" actually got brainwashed and graded me badly...and saying sorry for grading me badly...i mean..come on lahx...what kind of frens are you guys?!...whenever i have the time to...you guys didn't wanna do something about it....
but....when..i was able to go to school....you guys just got that feel to do the project?!...
WTF!
seriously...should i be the one chasing you guys in doing all the stuff?!
and..in another group project?!... stereotyping is what you called grading fairly?!...

it just made me more furious whenever i think about it...
now...i just hope that....is either...i get another group to hang around with...
or...i just be alone...anyway...is only another 3 semesters before everything ends!...
and seriously...i really wanna get my diploma out of it...
i really dun wanna waste my time anymore!
and i really mean it!
so....its time for me to sleep now....
school's later @ 8.30am!

GOODNIGHT!

2011-06-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

For all of the times that i tried for your smile

For making you think i was worth the while

So your love love love would be mine

And i am sorry for..

Making you love me and

saying goodbye

For being the one that taught you how to cry

For giving you everything that you dreamed

For taking it back when i fled the scene

Sorry love, for wasting your time

For all that i have done to you

i wish that i could make it right

So sorry that I loved you

Sorry that I needed you

Sorry that i held you tight

An apology now after all of this time

won't make any difference tonight

But i'm hoping i'm sorry will open your mind

i'm sorry that i loved you

i'm sorry that i hurt you

i'm so sorry that i loved you...

i'm so sorry that i hurt you....

i think that's the message that you wanted to convey to me...

and i know...nothing can stop us if you have truly loved me deep enough even despite the years taken and the miles apart....

i am tired of living for you...

now...i think is really time i should take you off my life permanently..

you said our relationship was a burden to you if it continues..

but you were never a burden to me in my life..

and spending time together with you is the most memorable time i ever had..

and waiting for you all these times is an enjoyment to me...

is not what you think a selfish act of yours for making me wait all these times for you...

maybe is not that you are selfish...

maybe...i am just not that type of girl that worth your love..

worth the time spend with....

people come and go...

our story is just another chapters in our life

so..i think is time to put an end for our story...

it is hard for me...miserable for me...

but.....it is more miserable for me not to end it with you...

cos...you chose not to contact me much anymore....

and...meeting up with you seems to be the hardest thing ever...

Goodbye...

you will never know how i felt and how much you meant to me...

all because never cared....

2011-04-26T06:35:00.002+08:00

After watching this video...

understanding the lyrics of the song....
you are the only one that appeared in my mind...
how i wish i can tell you how i feel now..
how i wish we could be together again...
but...i just feel that...
everything can never be the same again... :(

if only...we don't have to be apart....

2011-04-12T19:08:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for a month or even more!!!!......OMG! and that's because i have been busy taking up two jobs at the same time...and i dunnoe what's with me that i had to make myself so tired for the past few months taking up two jobs.....but well...at least i didn't slept my last few months...instead....i worked and worked.... :)

well....good news is...school started for me....

and i am actually enjoying going to school...

which i never had for at least 1 and a half years....

where no many cool people who could actually motivates me into going to school...

and yes..in sim i did make friends with a handful of awesome people...

and trust me...they really do make me feel really motivated somemore to go to school everyday....and yea i have been attending school everyday for the past one week...except for one sat class which i missed was a stupid mistake...

anyway...is only the 2nd week of class....so yup...is still early to talk about it...

well....maybe after a semster and with the results i have made at the end of this semster it will tell if i really do go to school.... and whether or not i really do enjoy studying instead of working full time....well...afterall...we all have to come out to this society and work our life away....

but first....i wanna enjoy my school life when i still can.... :)

for now....i will just update till here....

cos...seriously...there's nothing much to blog about...

and...blogger doesn't allow me to post any pictures...which is quite an annoying thing...

as for now...i gonna eat my dinner,watch glee <3 and off to work on time! (:

goodbye aliens! (:

2011-02-07T17:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

Haven been blogging for days...and it's the CNY week already...have been working day and night...and time really flies...
This year's CNY didn't really felt like one..cos I worked both eve and day night...
Was so worn out after working on eve...that i missed going both my ah ma hse to bai nian...only had dinner at night before going to work...
I was suppose to work on the rest of the 2nd,3rd and 4th of the CNY too..but I chose to take mc instead of working...it was a great lost to me...cos..not working = spending alot more money then I earned per day... :(
2nd day of CNY..went to J's colleague's hse to play blackjack...won quite a bit at first...but overall won only 30 bucks before leaving....
3rd day of CNY...
had brunch with xin and pris @ illuma..then head down to fusion to get our pay and ang bao as well...this year..boss was generous enough to give us a big ang pao... (:
aftermath...wanted to get a new watch for the new year...but due to much hesitation...someone already got what I wanted... :( hais...after that took MC just for not going to work...and cost me 70 bucks for that 5 mins of consultation and 2 days of MC..-.-
after that head down to union for drinks with Val and Munling the only 2 that I knew there to finish up the balance of martell they had previously....ohh..and Sam who left super early for home...
After that...we head over to Burberry to join another group of their friends... Burberry was more spacious then I thought so...and it was my first time there after hearing so much of that place...
had mixtures of beer and martell for losing the game 1,2,3...lols! and I afterall...I still think that dollhouse's singers are so much better looking then the one's at Burberry...hahax...singing wise...both are as bad..lols!
after drinking....head down to circuit rd area to play in between and blackjack...won in blackjack but...lost lots on "in between"....seriously...I dunnoe if it was true that the guy actually play cheat....but I just count it as I am too suay to gamble on in between...cos seriously...this game can make you win alot...and at the same time...lose alot....and the loss I had suffered can actually get me the adidas bagpack that I am eyeing on...and that armani watch... :( hais hais hais....all becos of my impulsive act! :(

and yesterday...woke up late in the evening...head down to cck with W to his fren's b'day party...we were late...cos this idiot actually wanted me to have more sleep and so didn't wake me up the time that he told me over the text...-.- and we were there for the finale.. Lols! After that...went amk to watch " the rebound" then S11 for HTHT before heading home... (:

Seriously.... I didn't enjoy the last 3 days that I had...probably becos...I have been missing the fun out there when others are enjoying it?!..or maybe I had too much in mind to even have time to enjoy all these...
Hais....I think I should get some days away from here to get some meditation.... :(

2010-12-29T16:03:00.003+08:00

i never felt so rejected before...

first...i got ignored for being a kind hearted person to celebrate the eve with you...but you didn't respond...is okay...maybe i am not your ideal friend to celebrate with you...

anyway..i wun be celebrating that day too...cos i will be working...

and now...i actually planned for a dinner @ my friend's place....

cos..we haven been meeting up for meals and catching up for a very long long time...

so...i thought today would be a good day to have it...

and i freaking asked you ytd if you could make it ytd afternoon...

and you gave your words to me....

but...just now...you text and say that you couldn't make it by 6...so i suggested 7....

but...you reply was...if you can't make it...i will have to go on my own...

hello...can't you see that the whole thing is like without you the whole thing wouldn't be going on...

is like...you are the main lead...i am only part of the picture...

so it doesn't really matters whether i can make it or not....

the final decision lies on you...

and yet you still blame me for telling you last min just becos you couldn't make time for us?!....cos you have something else before it...

hello...i told you a day beforehand...i didn't tell you on the day itself that the dinner is on?!...

i told you A DAY BEFORE! so if you think a day ahead is last min...please tell me what's not last min?...

if you can't plan your time well...PLEASE! dun put the blame on others..blame yourself for being so inefficient!

from now on...i swear to myself that i never make any plans or whatever shit that involves you!

2010-12-29T07:16:00.003+08:00

MY NEW ♥

Mario Maurer/ มาริโอ้ เมาเร่อ
4 December 1988

he's damn cute right?!..my current addicition.... (:

anyway...today work was alright....

and i discovered something....

i didn't know that selling flowers at thai pubs is the most easier job and most earning job ever...

cos...there's this girl...she's the "flower girl" ( it's what the thai dancers/singers name her..)

she actually earned alot of commission for selling flowers to customers and i heard that her basic also quite high....

and actually i noticed her quite sometime already...cos..almost all the ladies at my workplace are thais...only the girl and me myself are local...

and the hangbag she bring each time can't take my attention off from her...

cos..she was carrying a LV bag to work today...and it happened to be one of my favourite too..

the last time i saw her was with a gucci...

then...i happen to see her using a prada wallet...

and wearing a burberry watch...

OMG!...almost everything is branded...

seriously...by selling flowers she could actually own so many branded stuff at her age...

is really....了不起! really salute her....

if i can sell flowers like she does...i think i can be like her too....hahax.... :P

but too bad...i dunnoe how to do sales...only know how to collect money.. (:

so...i shall do my cashier part well... (:

alright...gonna go to bed now...

butterfactory tonight! ♥ with michelle...

again...i am spending my last 2010 wed night clubbing there with michelle which we did last year too...i dun think she do remember?!... o.O

hopefully tonight will be a good good night! (:

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE! ♥

2010-12-27T17:31:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

i know is kinda late to wish evryone now....but i just hope that you people out there did enjoy your whole of xmas week with the ones you spent with... (:
well...my christmas week went off quite well....

FIRST...

was celebrating seng's birthday at St James....

initially was so-not-fun at St James..cos of the DJ performances thingy....

but...it started to get a little abit better...

when the rnb songs start to play on...

and i think without michelle there with me...

i will be bored to death!

cos...i know none of he's friends and cousins...hahax....

me and my new hair colour....

i dunnoe why...but i can't help to notice that i always get back my black hair when the year comes to an end...-.- if you do follow my blog the whole time...you should know what i meant...hahax... :P

the bday boy and me! he was already drunk when we took this pic..LOLS!

my bff! she's the only one who's always so "on" when it comes to clubbing...even if is only the 2 of us...and i really miss you my dear... :( i am really sad that we can't work together anymore = we wouldn't be able to see each other more often... :(

SECOND...

picnic @ marina barrage... (:

the day didn't start out well...

cos it was drizzling when we got there....

so..we were like sitting in the shelter having our food....

W got potatoe salad, chips,a bottle of lemon tea and my fav sushi... (:

and got egg-mayo cheezy sandwich.... (: [my very own creation]

luckily i didn't make alot....cos...the portion of potatoe salad that he made was more than enough for the two of us....

let alone the sushi and the chips...

but..we managed to finish the sandwich,sushi and half portion of the potatoe... (:

after eating...it's fly kite time! (:

hais...didn't take pictures of me flying a kite...

cos...i didn't thought that i would blog...

and i dun own a camera....oh well~~

but afterall....i do enjoy the picnic session with you...

and is the my first time flying kite.. (:

ANNUAL CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION WITH GFS!

well...it didn't turn out to be the kind of christmas celebration we planned initially...

alright...i think i am the only one that was not happy about the idea of changing the celebration to a in-house thingy...so ya...

but...we still do gift exchange after our pizza christmas dinner....

played mahjong since 3pm in the afternoon.....

my xmas gift for this year from xuan...

it's a new year again in 4 more days.....

so far...i havent achieve anything for the whole of this year other than...dropping out of school..and working working and more working....

but...somehow...i did achieve what i had promise not to do..or rather...will NEVER do it...

and....doing things that i promise to...

like going overseas.... (:

alright...shall blog another time soon...

cos...i gonna go for work now.... (:

tata~~~~

2010-12-20T10:25:00.002+08:00

OMG! maltese is so cute can...how i wish i had one at home to accompany me! :(

anyway....i quit mizu...and now i am working at dollhouse as their cashier...

the people there are very friendly...but some of them are....naggy too...hahax...

seriously...can't stand it! some will complaint and complaint... the others will talk and talk...

but afterall...they will still be good together lahx...

so...anyway...i am happy working there...

and i have been there for 2 days... (:

anyway...saw this video on fb....

the lyrics of the song quite meaningful...

and everybody have been commenting how nice the movie "hello stranger" was....

and i seriously wanna catch it on screen!

if really there's no one to watch with....

then i shall watched it myself at home then....

hais... :(

2010-12-09T03:24:00.003+08:00

had a short night out with a fren of mine knew from club....

watched rapunzel...the animation and storyline was indeed pretty good...

didn't really know the story from the book...cos...i dun read these fairytale when i was a kid...

cos...when i was a kid...i serious what i have done when i was a kid...oh well..i have got stm...so pardon me... (: anyway...the movie lasted for an hour past to two...and a kid even cried so loud when the wicked old woman fell out of the tall tower where she have been hiding rapunzel for her own benefit....and most of the people in that theater laughed....funny or what?!.. LOLS!

came back home early...cos..he met his frens at zouk...

i was asked to go...but didn't really have the feel to....and was moodless anyway...so..took a cab home...went swee choon to tabao food for my bro before coming back...and when i was on my way home....there's this indian guy...keep looking at me...and i was thinking if he know me izit?!...and as i passby a 711...i thought going in to get some drinks...and again...i saw this indian guy...i thought he was really following me....and i was kinda scare..so i walked along the main road...and when i finally got into the lift...i thought i was safe...a man came into the lift with me...i press my floor..but he didn't...and i thought he just forget to..or he was staying the same floor as me...just that i never knew....but some thing freak me out!...he actually asked if we could make frens...OMG! i never could have imagined that someone could actually followed me all the way to my lift and asked such qns?!....(okay...there was once a guy riding on a bike asking if we could be friends when i was crossing the road on my way to the bus stop...-.- ) and obviously i said NO! -.-

how scary could that be?...

i seriously dunnoe how come there are guys out there so daring?!...-.-

anyway was "window shopping" just now....

and saw this 2 hello kitty polaroid cameras....

and i dunnoe which one i should get?!...cos both are cute...can't really make up my mind!

and i really want one...cos it was on my wishlist! (:

and anyway both are using different films...should i get both? or the white one first?!....

hummmm.....

http://polaroid-guru.blogspot.com/

saw this in one of the shop @ lucky plaza for 300plus bucks...as for the one selling in the blogshop is freaking close to 200 bucks only?!...OMG! cheaper by 100 bucks man...and i could use the money to get 10 more boxes of hello kitty films...-.-

http://cam-mania.blogspot.com/

this is damn cute! and i like it... :(

but seriously...i can't make up my mind?!.... -.-

and i think i seriously need to get a life!

hanging out with people that i haven't been doing for months?!..

and all i do is work home work home?!...

seriously?!....i dun wanna lead a life like that! :(

2010-12-04T12:13:00.005+08:00

MOrning people! (:
well i dunnoe how i manage to wake up this early...but i did... (:
and not wasting any precious time in my life...
i shall try to get sufficient sleep and not long hours of sleep each day... (:
worked last night...and the following 2 nights i will be working at mizu...
it would be tough...but..hopefully the time will pass asap! (:

already....actually i wanted to get some pictures online to post here...
but...i couldn't get any nice ones...
so i think...might as well put my baby photo up...
see....how innocent i was when i was so so much younger?!.... :P
alright...gotta go prepare and head down to town... (:

BYES!

2010-12-02T12:10:00.002+08:00

packed my whole room..

and found lots of memories you guys once gave it to me...

be it a happy one at that very moment...

or the most unforgettable one now...

it has all became precious memories to me...

and the a wake up call for me to move on with my life.... (:

anyway...it was fun and tiring clearing all the rubbish that i have been accumulating over the years....

and YES! it's time to throw all the trash away... (:

while i was packing i found alot of letters and b'day cards that friends/ then bfs wrote for me.... (:

there were those touching ones, funny ones...and many many....

thinking back...actually i do have people who care about me....

maybe when i was younger....my brain wasn't that mature enough to think of repaying those who have once helped me, who have showed care and concern for me....

but for now....many things happened before me have helped me in growing up....

and the thoughts are there....

but...is just that...i have lost all their contacts...

but...whatever it is....if we are fated to meet again...we will... (:

alright...time to get ready...

meeting michelle @ 1.30! :O

2010-12-01T08:07:00.003+08:00

Today is the beginning of the last month of 2010...
time really flies....it's a month since i lasted blogged about what's happening...
well....many things happened...
and i would say...last month was really a busy month for me....
and also...a month where difficult decisions has to be made...
seriously in life things dun always go the way we want it to be...
like the type of people that came into our life...
and the type of people who chose to let go and to keep...
we all have a choice to make...
but...each time...i would choose the wrong one over the right one...
at that very moment...and then regret the rest of my life.....
hais......
and it's been almost two months since i started working at mizu...
when i started working there....
everythings seems so easy...
my job scope seems so easy...
but...as times pass....
i discovered that....doing my job as a waitress is just not enough...
cos...there will be bad times....when your boss ask you to ask more people to come down to support you....
so that you can earn that pathetic amount of commission....
and wasting your effort in drinking the customers...
and at the end of the day = GET DRUNK...-.-
and at times....
joining your colleagues gossiping about the colleague that they dislike...
when...one day you will be afraid that your turn might come too...
and seriously speaking....
i hate my current job..
seriously!
i hate every single bit of stuff i do down there....
if is not for the way that i could earn money fast legally...
i wouldn't have stayed there....
and seriously...i miss having school.... :(
all i asked now is that...i would be able to go to SIM smoothly...
and also...graduate from there smoothly....
no more dramas PLEASE!
and as for this month...
i hope it can pass faster than i have ever thought it would be... (:
that's all i am asking for....

2010-10-31T16:27:00.000+08:00

Spent my Halloween night playing mahjong this year..lols! Was suppose to celebrate with darling and co at some sentosa event...but the tickets were sold out... :( so no one planned any other plan B so mahjong was my plan B to spend thru the night...
and time really flies...it's already the last day of oct...which means...nov is approaching...so as 2011 is...2 more months...into a new year again....
Anyway...darling uploaded the pictures of us in uss...that day was really an enjoying day...with the most fun group of ppl...though we might be dealing with different shit everyday...those working ones work like mad...and those studying ones study like mad...hahax...but still we would have time for one another...meet up alittle to update one another the shits we have been going through....

Us at universal studio... (: my first time there and darling's dunnoe how many times there...lols!

Us with the popcorn pushcart...damn cute lohx... (: well can't really see the pushcart actually...hahax...

they have different shape and sizes of hats for us to take pictures with.... (:

I like this...the hat is so cute...reminds me of the evil queen in the Alice in the wonderland...with the big big head...hahhax... (:

pretending to be construction workers along nyc street..hahax..

Asked darling to help me take a picture of me sitting on the stairs...cos these stairs looked kinda similar to the ones where S and B meet up with one another in gossip girls..shit! My addiction to gossip girls...:X

the formal one...

and the informal....lols! Like what we did during our school days...hahax...

More in fb... (:
well...this month have been a....not a good month...cos alot of things happened...ugly truths were revealed...seeing the real face beneath every mask wore...hoping that every other month that comes would be a better month...and that's all I am asking for... (:

2010-10-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

Why does everything have to happen between 8 nov and 12 nov?!... :( I am really sad that I can't go and pay you a respect on either on the 8/9 cos...I win be here both of the days... :( and I can't celebrate C's b'day with him...though he didn't celebrate mine with me to...cos I asked him not to...and...he really didn't...and didn't even wish me happy birthday!..damn! How dumb can he be right?!...hahax...but okay lahx...I dun blame him..cos he knew he sure kana kb no matter what he do back then.... :P
haix....seriously..this trip made me missed out quite a number of stuff...they I wished I could do it... :(

Anyway...is a bullshit that you can slim down after piercing your tongue for the first few weeks...cos...I have been eating eating after piercing...damn it! And I dun see why you can't really eat after piercing...lols!

Last Monday...universal studio with darling, her new bf...-.-, xueni, her new bf and Val....was awesome...but somehow not...cos...I dunnoe...hahax...anyway...the trip was good afterall lahx...hahax...waiting for darling to upload the pictures!!...can't rush her...cos she's busy with her fyp and school...so have to wait patiently lohx... :D should post the pictures here once she uploaded... (:

Photos from last night...pris,missy and one of their fren came down and support me at mizu mizu last night... :D

2010-10-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

Omg!!...I think I am drunk for quite awhile already...cos I just realize that 2010 only left with 2 more months! Oh my tian! Time really flies... :( once again I gonna be another year older!!...while I am finding means and ways to earn money...the days seem to be going faster and faster...
and it has been years since I last met up with all my friends....(you know who you are...) :( everyone is so busy with their work and school...haix...
I wanna go taiwan on my bday! I hope you still remember huh?!...you promise to go with me de! I shall not mention your name..hahahx....
I seriously wanna go!!... (: if time doesn't allow...then I shall go bkk instead...anyway...I am going 2 weeks later...hahax...I dunnoe whether is right to go...but it seems that it has left me with no choice but to go lohx....haix...
hopefully I will home safely after that trip...hahahhahax....sounds like I might not be able to make it back like that...hahahahx.... :P
But...it will be a bad bad trip! Cos I can't eat the Thai food there! Cos...majority of them are spicy! And with my stupid tongue stud I can't even eat properly!!...hate it! :(
and I shall shop to the fullness! (: and this morning...my mummy was asking if I was going somewhere with my friends...and I haven even told her I am going bkk next month...and yet she can sense that I am going somewhere again...hahahx...maybe it was a coincidence...or maybe...mummy really knows what I wanna do or where I wanna go even before telling her about it?!...o.O

anyway...work was not so bad last night... (: made two new friends and 2 new friends added on fb! (: I think by the end of this year...I will have maybe...600 friends on fb?!...hahahx...think only lahx...might not be...cos I only accept those that I know...those that I dunnoe and look weird to me...I shall just leave it pending...cos..is quite bad to ignore the request you see....hahax....
Alright!..I shall go watch my 呼叫大明星! 4 more hours to go...加油加油!!... :D

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First day at mizu

2010-10-23T15:13:00.000+08:00

Hello aliens... (: well last night was my first night working at mizu mizu...starting of the night I was seriously stone and tired at the earlier part of the night...but after 2 groups of my frens came...afterall the night was not too bad... :D
thanks xin xin, pris and frens...whom have made the final decision of coming down...and Val,Samantha,ming cong and frens for coming down on my first night of work as a surprise... (:
Last night was good...so I hope...tonight will be even better... (:

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Polaroid! (:

2010-10-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

My first polaroid! (: with pris...
went to pierce our tongues then... to lucky plaza to get her Polaroid camera... (:

getting tongue piercing has been on my mind for years...but due to certain reasons...and the courage to do it..takes me a long time...hahahx...and yes! I finally had it...but it will be damn xin ku for the next 1 month...cos I can't eat my fav spicy food... :( and now I am having difficulties eating and talking...sianx! But is okay...I shall endure for 2 weeks then I will be able to change to a shorter stud and i think it will be better than now having the longer stud thru my tongue...hahahx.... (:
tonight will be my first night working at mizu mizu... (: kinda excited but yet at the same time...abit worried about working there...cos is another new working environment that I have to adapt to...the new working people...and lots more...but luckily...tonight Michelle is working with me...so..hahax...hopes everything go will smoothly tonight... :D

Drinking night on a clubbing night!

2010-10-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

Didn't club last night...cos we all wasn't in that mood to club...or maybe...we are sick of clubbing already?...hahax... :P after work...met Val,Sam and kq for dinner..cos Sam and kq came down to interview... (: after that home and then down to plush bar for beer...
as usual...drink till high (michellekoh) hahax...and sang the usual songs... (:
Pictures! Took them on fb! Thanks to Michelle for that efficient uploads..hahax... :D

I look damn cui in all the photos above...cos I was too lazy to make up and do my hair...so..was wearing a cap.. (:
After plush bar..head down to nana...drink drink drink...till I almost drop..but luckily I didn't and manage to send Michelle home first before heading home... (:

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Eat pray love

2010-10-13T13:22:00.000+08:00

Went to watch eat pray love last night...(and I think I went to watch with the wrong person..-.- ) and I would say...I am experiencing the similar situation that what the actress have been feeling about...the confusion, contradiction in my life....not knowing what I want in my life...or maybe...I am still unsure what I really want out of myself....
Or maybe...I am just someone who's so ordinary who wanna lead a life that is so extraordinary...
I am really sick of living on my current life...and I am seriously not enjoying...maybe..I am just living for the sake of living...
Hummm....maybe maybe...if is possible...I shall try traveling alone...to the places I want to go...and find out the beauty of this world.... (:

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Loves!

2010-10-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

The fat fat me... :(

the people I hang out with.... :B

there should be more to come next week.... :)
stay tune people!

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october

2010-10-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

hello blog...I am back again after leaving you rot for almost a month... :P
anyway...another month have past...a new month have started for days....is still the old me you knew and have always known for...the emo kid...hahax... :B

Well...for the past 2 weeks..I think...have been going down to boat quay (union & plush) drinking almost every night...and also clubbing @ butterfactory for the last 2 weeks...met rare people that hardly go to club...hahhax...maybe they will with their group of friends...I dunnoe... :) and meeting new frens...another group of people that can go clubbing or drinking with...
Though is good meeting new people...enjoying what it is to be enjoyed...yet..I am feeling not as happy as before.... :(
Izit because as people grow older...they tend to have a higher expectation out of themselves?...
Or maybe....they seriously dunnoe what they want in life?..thinking that whatever happened is just part and parcels of life?...

Or maybe...when you tend to get cheated more than once...you will start to think that...everything that is happening now ain't real...nothing is real in this world...nobody is gonna develop any true feelings on you...
trust no one...cause...the more you trust someone...the more hurt you will get...and that would leave you living in misery.... :(

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2010-09-26T02:35:00.003+08:00

officially giving myself a week break from work...

and it all started on friday after the morning shift.. (:

well...friday..went to watch wall street with cheston..

cos got those complimentary from his mum...

and practically for the whole show i didn't really quite understand...

cos..maybe the movie really too into stocks and the politics that every businessman face in that field...

so..it was really my kind of movie...

but yet..i was kinda curious what wall street was all about...so i agreed to watch with him...

after that met up with val,xueni,qy and the rest for drinks @ union...

as for today...

went into jb with ivan,chris,lucas and pam...

well...kinda weird group to go with....but still i do enjoy the trip... (:

went Jusco for my second time...

had shabu shabu for lunch...

then tour around the shopping mall....

while waiting for our movie to start at 6pm...

we caught Piranhas

then ended the day in JB having dinner @ old town....

on our way back...

we were stuck at the woodlands checkpoint for at least an hour...

before heading down to arab st for seesha....

ended the day pretty well....

and as for the rest of my off days...

i shall try my very best to pack my room..

which is always in a total mess!

and of cause to sleep as much as i can... (:

NIGHTS!

2010-09-24T07:18:00.000+08:00

I lost control of myself...the things I said hurts...to you...but also to me...you should know I want things to be in my way...and when things wasn't...I chose to escape...and not apologizing...do you know that when you ask me...who are you going to find early in the morning?...the people that you had mentioned are not around...who else can I look for? I seriously dunnoe...and do you know it really hurts?...I know you have alot of people to look for when you are down...but for me?..you know that you are the only one I trust and tells everything to...without you...I got nothing left..no one with me....I am all alone by myself...I dun mind you kb me just now...kb me all you want...I dun care...but when it comes to telling me who am I suppose to look for...it seriously hurts me...cos the fact is...I dun have anyone that have really care for me...or anyone I can really tell everything to....
thanks for reminding me that...all along..I am alone...
becos...people are all taken away from my life leaving me all alone in this world...why they take me away too...I dun wanna live in such misery...
I am really sick and tired of all of it....

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missing you already....

2010-09-19T21:32:00.001+08:00

I didn't realise 3 months could pass that fast...and I didn't know...this 3 months could make me fall for you even more...maybe...our fate only lasted for this short period...but I really wish that we could have longer time spend with one another....
you presences is like an addiction to me...
your love is my drug....
another year we gonna be apart from or maybe longer?...it definitely will...cos I believe that you would take up the job there....
If we ever meant to be together ever again....And if we ever meet again...I would wanna be if you and only you...

" if reincarnation is possible...we would be potatoes that are harvested from the different plot but being put together in the same basket...." and that's where we will meet again....

I miss you....
My fat potatoe! :(

2010-09-10T06:34:00.002+08:00

LIKE WE USED TO...

I can feel her breath

As she's sleeping next to me

Sharing pillows and cold feet

She can feel my heart;

Fell asleep to its beat

Under blankets and warm sheets

If only I could be in that bed again

If only it were me instead of him

Does he watch your favorite movies?

Does he hold you when you cry?

Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts

When you've seen it a million times?

Does he sing to all your music

While you dance to Purple Rain?

Does he do all these things

Like I used to?

Fourteen months and seven days ago

Oh, I know you know

How we felt about that night

Just your skin against the window

Oh we took it slow

And we both know

It should have been me inside that car

It should have been me instead of him in the dark

Does he watch your favorite movies?

Does he hold you when you cry?

Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts

When you've seen it a million times?

Does he sing to all your music

While you dance to Purple Rain?

Does he do all these things

Like I used to?

I know, Love

(I'm a sucker for that feeling)

Happens all the time, Love

(I always end up feeling cheated)

You're on my mind, Love

(Oh darling, led her where that leaded)

It happens all the time, Love, yeah

Will he love you like I loved you?

Will he tell you every day?

Will he make you make you feel like you're invincible

With every word he'll say?

Can you promise me if this was right,

Don't throw this all away?

Can you do all these things?

Will you do all these things

Like we used to?

Oh, like we used to...

2010-09-01T13:37:00.001+08:00

It's another new month...nothing has change...the same job I am working as..the same old people I have been meeting...the only thing that's new is my phone...(: yup..I got the iPhone 4..and I am back being a iPhone user once again...hahax...but after using this iPhone for days...I still dun feel comfortable for certain reasons...not becos I am still not used to the keyboard method of typing...in fact I really enjoy texting using iphone compared to the normal keypad phones..and I love being able to twit as much as I want anytime anywhere...or even blog as and when in want to...is really more convenient for me in ways....
Okay...whatever..anyway..tml will be the start of comex fair once again...it's another 4 busy days to work for...and I will working on the third level Sony booth...will be working with darling this time but both of us in the different company... (:
As for this month...I seriously need to get my hair done asap...and also maybe a short getaway to somewhere sometime during this month... (:

2010-08-30T20:09:00.002+08:00

i wish that school can start sooner....

so that i would spend my entire free time working and working in pool fusion... :(

working here almost everyday...

and seems like i have been working here for years....

alot of things have been happening...

both good and bad...

when it's too good...i would think that it's so unreal...

there must be motive behind....

i dunnoe...maybe i am skeptic...

haix...whatever....

i have got so many things i wanna do!!!

i wanna do my hair..

i wanna hang out with the people i wanna hang out with..

i wanna go shopping...

i wanna go sun tanning...

i wanna go on a holiday!!!....

and most of all....

i dunn wanna work and hope that money will come to me somehow...

heex... :P

2010-08-12T05:39:00.004+08:00

Endless Love

My love, there's only you in my life,
The only thing that's right.
My first love, you're every breath that I take,
You're every step I make.
And I, I want to share, all my love with you,
No one else will do.
And your eyes, they tell me how much you care.
Oh yes, you will always be, my endless love.
Two hearts, two hearts that beat as one.
Our lives have just begun.
Forever, I'll hold you close in my arms,
I can't resist your charm.
My love, I'll be a fool, for you I'm sure,
You know I don't mind.
Cause you, you mean the world to me.
Oh, I know I've found in you, my endless love.
And love, I'll be that fool, for you, I'm sure.
You know I don't mind.
And yes, you'll be the only one.
Cause no one can deny,
This love I have its fine.
I'll give it all to you,
My love, my love, my endless love.

2010-08-11T17:02:00.007+08:00

maybe sometimes...
i just wish to be alone...
all alone by myself...
maybe i have not found myself....
found what i really wanted?...

this week was sort of a more work and some exercise week...
on monday...had a netball session with secondary school netball team and juniors @ mt faber safra...
didn't know that they outdoor courts for netball...
though the time we had was short and the court was not as good as kallang's still we did manage to fulfill our desire for not playing together for the longest time...
some wasn't able to make it...but still there were still enough people to make up 2 teams to play against with...

after that...went to tiong to eat...
and back to fusion for some pool before heading for mahjong...
didn't win neither did i lose...
was suppose to go for a swim on tuesday...
but was too tired after mahjong the night before....
and wasted my one whole off day sleeping... :(

Today...
worked in the afternoon...
and it was such a good weather to sleep in... :(
how i wish i didn't have to work...but i had to... :(
will be working for the rest of the days all the way till tues that i will get my off day or maybe not?
cos..i was thinking of working more for this month so that i will be able to get the things that i want...or maybe going to bangkok with pris... (:

there's really lots of things i want out of my wanted list!
1. a polaroid camera
2. a digital camera
3. a new phone! i have always thought of getting an iphone after my first one got stolen... but on a second thought...i want a blackberry... :( or maybem i can get both... (:
4. more new clothes! i haven been going shopping for years! :(
5. new sports shoes...since i have been playing basketball regulaly...might as well get a new pair...if not my mum will be nagging that i have been wearing hers...-.-

i think that's all i want to get....but i know i can't get at one shot...so...i really need to work hard and buy them month by month then... (:

anyways...i am done with school for now...
told my mum i am quitting rp...
and she didn't really object it...but ask me to settle it asap before they charge me for another semester...
and i told her that i am going to study next year in sim...
and she totally allow me to do what i want and what i chose to do with...
i didn't know my mum was so supportive to us...
well...maybe i didn't really know her well enough cos after all...we haven't been spending quality time together at home...sharing what we had been through these years...all because we have all been out working....
she's been working hard for the family...
and us...working hard to make her burden less...

sometimes...i just wish that i could confess everything with my mum...and maybe i could get advices from her...but the problems lies with me...i don't like to share things with people...not even my close friends...cos..i dunn like to be judge...
just like saying out that i am quitting school....
most of them would think it's a foolish things to do afterall i am already in my third year....
but only my mum would be that supportive to believe that is not that i dun want to continue with studies anymore...but to find something which i think it suits me better...and worth more for a try....

i have got nothing better to do at work...

so..i brought my laptop over to watch shows at work...

smart eh! (: cos practically there's no one in the afternoon playing pool....-.-

and i am done with GLEE! (:

i can't deny that finn hudson ( Cory Monteith ) is damn CUTE! (:

he's just so charming whenever i see him sings in the show... (:

and for the next show i am watching would be this....

personal taste...

my 2 favourite actor and actress...

2010-08-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

Most people live because they are born to live…
While other believes that they live because they have special mission to do…
But some, they live because they are afraid to die…

What would you do if you think that living seems to be a torture to you…
And that you want to end all these sufferings but yet you are too afraid to do it…
Sometimes I feel that, fate have been unfair to some people…
Those who want to live a longer live but yet the chance of them living longer are being taken away…
However, at a certain point, some people just want to end their life because they are troubled by the slightest problem they are facing in their life…

To live or not to live…can we really control it?

I don’t know since when…I have been having thoughts of leaving this world…
To a far far away place…
Not for any holidays, but escaping away from reality, the pressures, the looks from people…
And all I conclude was… death.
The only solution to stop the sufferings I think I have been suffering…
be it the emotionally or physically…
I seriously want to put a full stop to my life…

Went to my cousin’s grandfather’s funeral last night with my mummy…
Whenever I go to such funerals…I will feel the pain of seeing people who are close to you leaves…and I will be damn scare that this very moment will happen on me too….
But last night was different…I thought otherwise….
When I was on my way home…
All these thoughts just came running through my head…
How would my funeral like?
Will there be a lot of people sending me for my crematory? …
Will there be people I have always wanted to meet up with and never got a chance to beat my wake?
Will there be lots of flowers as decoration at my wake?
Will there be lots of hello kitty?
Will I have to customize my coffin if I wanted it to be purple?

And at the same time…
How I wish a big truck would just hit me through…
And I would just end my life like that…
I also don’t really know…since when I have been thinking of ending my life…
Thinking of the ways of dying without feeling any pain…

Am I really out of my mind?
Like seriously? Cause I have never been so desperate to end my life…
And i really do have big dreams for my life..i seriously wish that I would be successful in life..
Happily married to my one and only…having my own house, my own kids and even living till I could get to see my grandchildren…like most of us yield for…

But…the time for me to leave this world is not what I can control or maybe I could… maybe I l will live till my eighties…or maybe I will only live till tomorrow cause they heard me that I want to be taken away…
Don’t shed for me…cause I don’t deserve any…
Don’t feel bad cause you don’t owe me anything to be unable to accompany me when I needed a companion…
Smile at me when you visit me…
And remember me for who I am…

2010-08-02T04:36:00.002+08:00

LOVE.

have you ever love/ loved someone so deep before?...

or...have someone said they love you before?...

and have you ever thought they truly love you?...

It's all the confusion ever since you stepped into my life.....

2010-07-31T08:51:00.003+08:00

Life is the symptom. Death is the cure.

just finished watching his show "After Life"...

it was actually about a gal who met an accident and found herself in a funeral house..

and the somewhat director of that funeral house told her that she was pronounced dead by the doctors and therefore she was there for him to prepare her for her funeral..

But that gal wasn't convinced that she was already dead..

so she tried means and ways to get out of the room where corpses were kept..

until...she saw her own reflection on the mirror that the director showed her...

then she was convinced that she was dead...

and had accepted the truth...

On her funeral day....

she was all dressed up in her coffin...

and she was requested the director to allow her to look at her own look one last time...

and that's when she knew..all along she was dead...

and the director was deceiving her all along...

however...it was too late for her to escape...

and she was then buried alive....

after watching this show..

i was wondering where would our souls be when we depart from this world?

is there really something called after life?

and all those who have died young was it meant to be...

cos...life is too tough for them that whoever was giving them the cure and that was death...

then why leave the ones alive who grief for them...and missing them every single day?

i can't sleep now!

not at all... :( and i am taking part in a pool tournament later...-.-

but i got secret training last night thanks to boss and may for the little tips! (:

but still i think i would get out after the first game..hahax....

today sure DIE! cos...i gotta work till 5am later....

nope...i mean face an empty pool hall till 5 later...

but i will be able watch my show at the same time... (:

nvm..i shall go and download more shows later and watch some shows now before meeting them for a little training....

and hope my opponent wouldn't that fierce.. (:

2010-07-29T09:05:00.004+08:00

I NEED MY SLEEPING PILLS! :(

i can't sleep in anyways now!

and i don't even know why?... :(

watched 2 movies and tried my best to sleep...

and my mind is just still so awake...

and my nose is running like an open tap... :(

despite swallowing a pill for flu...

it's still the same...WORST thing is...

the pill caused drowsiness....but i don't feel anything at all?

maybe hot drinks might help alittle..

so i tried looking for tea bag....

but all i have at home are coffee sachets... :(

but luckily my eyes are shape enough to see a little box filled with teabags hiding in a corner.. :D

couldn't sleep so i went blog hopping... (:

all i saw was everyone are moving forward to a much better "myself"

accomplishing whatever it takes them to a higher position...

be it in work? studies? or in a relationship...

as for me?

i failed in whatever i do..

be it the dream that i always wanted to have...

my life....

my studies...

my relationships....

even...my relation with friends...

whatever i said...i never once accomplished it... NONE OF IT!

all i do is talk big...dreaming that i can do it...

and sleeping my whole life away.....

and sometimes...

i do wish that i can sleep my whole life away from now to bring away all my miseries, all my pain...

is just ME i need to deal with now....

2010-07-27T13:41:00.002+08:00

I am officially quitting RP for good…

I know some may think since it’s your last year already why not just continue on and complete and then graduate…
Or some may say..isn’t it a shame that you quit your school just like that since you are already in your 3rd year?

i know i have already promised to complete it and graduate...but..it really seems so must harder than i thought...

the fact is…I can’t graduate not before remodelling all 22 modules…
And that makes up to another 2 years in RP… :(

Then..some will say see…told you to go to school regularly already…
All you know is work and play and neglect school….
YES…is all my fault..i can’t blame anyone…all I can blame is me myself…fault…
The emotional breakdowns that made me skipped school…
Why do I have to be so emotional that I skipped school?..
Why do I have to work part time and couldn’t go to school the next day?..
YES..cos..i love to work and spend and spend the whole time thinking which country to go during the holidays….
I could have done all these after my poly…
Why can’t I just wait for that 3 years to end…go to school regularly and complete my diploma?...

All because…how would a 17 years old girl knew what she wants back then?
And RP was never her choice…
Her academic life was screwed up after she left secondary school with that shitty results she got…
And she kept regretting that she shouldn’t have went into RP…and should have listened to her peers that she should have chose a school that she like instead of a course she likes but not the school….
And shitty things have been happening in her life….
When she’s down…all she turn to was her bed….cos..she’s too afraid how people look at her, judge her…and looking down on her…
She was never sincerely encouraged…she was stubborn and never seeks for advice…

After last year when she knew that she wasn’t able to graduate by next year…she retook her year 2 modules and was determined to go to school regularly and improve on her GPA. But things didn’t turn out the way she wants it to be…cos..she was determined for the first few weeks…but her determination didn’t last long…and it all ended into another semester wasted….

She thought looking for her mentor might be a good start…but that stupid idiotic mentor didn’t really give any helpful advices but only told her how many modules she had to retake…is really kinda waste her time looking for her…but thanks to her mentor at the same time that she made her realise that it’s time to stop wasting so much time in RP…it wouldn’t bring her anywhere…she just doesn’t belongs to RP…no matter how much she loves the current course she’s in…
She still got to get back to reality that…she don’t belong to it….

she never knew what she wants...

and she hopes she knew what she truly wants....

2010-07-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

being away is so much better than living on?..

looking at the national flag hanging up high along the corridors...

reminds not only that national day is coming...

and also that you have gone for a year...

and it all comes into my mind too...

if the night before i agreed to meet you...

you might have avoid the accident by not going to school...

i can't help but blaming myself that i was partly at fault too...

and time seems to pass so fast that you have already gone for a year soon...

How are you down there?

living well?...

2010-07-25T13:47:00.002+08:00

I AM TROUBLED! :(

i know what's have been troubling me..

what yet i couldn't find any solution to it...

no matter how hard i try looking for one...

either party sure get hurt...

and if you do know me...

i rather hurt myself than you...

i didn't want to post these on my blog..

but you left me with no choice...

i already told you...

i have been trying and hoping that the possibility of us being together could increase little by little as time goes by...

and i have already told you that i NEED TIME!

and yes...you agreed to it...

but...you doesn't prove to what you have agreed...

you have been pressurizing me...

i know the process is way too slow...

but the fact that i still can't get over someone that i truly and deeply loved before...

and that includes all the regrets that i had way too much in the past that hinders me in moving on...

who doesn't want to move on and have a happier future?

i want...and i did tell you i want...

but i seriously need more time than you thought...

i know all you want is assurances whether you have a place in me...

but all i can give is just all these...

messaging, talking on the phone with you...and going out with you more often for now...

you wrote on your fb...

" trust take time to build. Obviously i am just jealous. Why i cant see anything that mention about me? God pls help me:( "

you said you are jealous?

but all i could have interpret from your sentences is...

all you wanted was publicity of your existences on my blog?

which are the thoughts i have when i saw this post....

i remembered you ask me...

why didn't i post anything about the things you did that made me happy...

i can honestly tell you now...

is not that i dunn wanna post them up..

is just that either i am too busy that i could have missed posting it up...

all because i dun blog every often if you do notice the number of post per month...

not like i will blog every single day...30 post in a month?

if you do notice...i could only blog like less than 10 a month?

or some months more...if i am free to...

but...you should know that whatever you did i really do appreciate...

i really do...

i know you can't feel the importance you are in me...

all because i am not the typical girl that really know how to express myself...

and i really hope that you will stop having the " qihui/shanice " that you had in you...

i may not be what you one that you are expecting, or may not be the one that you think i am to you....

stop living in the assumption you have for me....

i am not perfect.

i think you should know who you are..

and this post is for you...

2010-07-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

Today is a stupid day! :(

was suppose to meet up for basketball....but due to something it was cancelled...

and i wasted my whole entire day sleeping at home... :(

and now i got myself with a stupid sore eye...

i hate it! :(

every unfortunate stuffs are happening since last night! :(

what the hell....-.-

alot of things have happened...

i dunnoe whether to cry or to laugh...

have i brought all this upon myself?

2010-07-20T02:33:00.002+08:00

Today's the 8th month since you are away...

is unbelievable....

but still...i am missing you every secs...

how i wish you are still here..

maybe things wouldn't be that complicated as before....

remember you told me you love fishing...

and that you are gonna bring me along?

remember those days you were here to accompany me?

how are you?

when are you going to visit me?

tell me!

hint me!

even if i could just feel your presences around...

i didn't be glad....

2010-07-19T12:52:00.002+08:00

Why am i so affected by you?

i dunnoe why your appearance last night was such an affection to me...

i dunnoe why...

could be because i felt something to you yet again?..

or was it because i felt guilty towards in the way i treated you?...

your appearance to me was the worst timing ever...

what if you had appeared earlier into my life...

it could have been better to the both of us?

your fb post was such a disturb to me....

your say and everything meant something to me...

which bothers me...

but...it all came down to something....

which all i knew was....

afterall...i dunnoe what i really want for me.... :(

2010-07-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

Didn’t really have much time to blog on my trip to hong kong when I returned due to endless jobs that i took up....

Well now that I have been thinking of taking a break from this busy city life..

Therefore I am here here to blog about the last trip I went and hope that it would save me alittle from the addiction of travelling…heex… J

Well…last trip to hong kong…

was kind of a disappointment...cos it wasn't seems to be the way i thought it to be....and also due to the language in communicating is different it tends to make me kinda left out of the conversation that was going on at times....cos to me being left out of conversation is a terrible thing....

finance is also a problem to me…I had to really control my expenses throughout the week there…it just sucks that you paid to travel so far but yet you couldn’t really spurred on lots of stuff ! L

the area i lived in when i was there for a week... J

hongkong left me with 80% beautiful memories because of the weather that is so cooling over there unlike this tropical city we are living in...

certain food there was addiction…

and the fashion there is just more like what really human beings should dressed up to be…in hongkong you hardly see guys wearing singlet, shorts and slippers around or even unmatched tops and shorts walking around..

probably because the weather is colder, therefore most of the guys wear shoes and girls would be either shoes/boots.. and I really do adore the fashion sense that the hongkong people posses… J

the restaurant we had dim sum...

having dim sum in hongkong is something that I wouldn’t miss cause is the origin where dim sum comes about…probably I haven’t really been to a place that severed delicious dim sum so for the time being the dim sum I had in this restaurant can said to be only on average standard..

and I can’t believe that the twin’s grandparents have been patronising this particular restaurant for years…they can go there for morning tea, lunch sometimes and even dinner are also having it there…

my favourite yudan! ♥

not the dim sum there that makes me love HK but is the finger food that I had addiction on….the curry fishball there is just awesome..and the sever in sticks…in HK they dun call it fishball…they called it the “yudan” and another favourite of mine would be the macaroni, scramble egg and toast set that we had it in the cha can ting… the first time I went there was with HW and for that first time I felt in love with the macaroni and the scramble egg…

and the cha can ting is unlike any restaurant in SG, cause in there you share tables with strangers so in there you wun be able to sit on any specific tables that you want to so long as there’s available sits they will just assign you to it and most of the time they would observe that any table that is almost done with their food the people working there would ask you to stand beside the table In a way of asking the previous customers to eat faster so that you can have the sit there….and the server there servers very fast too… J and we managed to eat it again the day before I am coming back… J

i miss them... ♥

if Singapore have such place serving the same thing I wun mind having it every morning cause it’s just too delicious! J

On the third day, we went to the Disneyland…

nothing much in there….but still is a place that one should visit at least once in a lifetime… J the feel of being in the world of fantasy and once again I felt like a little child creating my beautiful childhood…is just a pity that mummy and daddy wasn’t with me for that moment…if not I would think that I would be the most blissful child on earth! J

the lion king show....

Next...the 3D mickey mouse show....

is really awesome...cause you can practically feel the wind effect when the scene is up...and real water splashing onto you...

Dumbo ride!

Winne the pooh's ride..

ain't this pretty? i saw it in one of the restaurant there...

Lunch Time!

had mickey waffles ice cream for dessert...

back to tour....

mickey ice cream...cute right?!... :D

this boat took us to a really exciting trip...though is kind short...but you will love it once you are on it... (:

the raft that took us to the tarzan's island...cos it is on a isolated small island on its own....

The finale

It was a splendid day we spent in there I should say…and our fantasy trip ended with a spectaculars musical fireworks…. J

the display looks so real right?

out from the fantasy and back to the reality... :(

Then the day after we went to one of HK tourist attraction....

we took a bus up to the tall tall hill....
and i think it took us 30 mins ride to the top...

YUP!...this place would be familiar to people who went to hong kong...

alright...is really a long post for this....

but...i still got alot more haven post it up ehh...

hahax...shall post the second part again...

when i have the time to... J

2010-07-03T08:48:00.001+08:00

it was a splendid day today! (:

it would be the perfect if i had managed to wake up for lesson today...

hahax...

well...met up with darling they all quite late today...

cos..it was really a damn nice day to sleep in... (:

anyway...met them at 8 plus for dinner at ang mo kio hub...

then after that went straight for prawning... (:

darling and ruixian was damn good at it....

they caught quite alot...

as for me..only 3 pathetic ones... :(

is okayy...i will buck up the next time.... (:

after that prawning for 3 hours...

we had 40 over prawns for bbq...(i think..)

tada!...the two gigantic prawns caught by xueni and ruixian

and the mini ones we caught.... (:

only 4 of us took...cos we were too bored while bbq-ing... (: but my viewty cam dunnoe why today damnn cui even after editing them...-.-

after prawning...the rest went home...

ruixian and i went cine for knight and day...(:

tom cruise was damn handsome as always... :D

was quite a nice show afterall...except the part where the movie was about to end....

some inconsiderate cheena ppl was snoring away....

super spoiler lohx! what the....-.-

after movie we had mac's breakfast before heading home separately...

poor ruixian have to travel all the way to woodland..

when i reached home and bathe already...he's still on his way home lohx....

hahax....

haven watched such a late midnight movie for a very very long time...

i guess the very last time was with you...

and it was also a very long time since i stayed in town till such an early time.... hahax...

alright...gonna go to bed now..

GOODNIGHT! (:

2010-07-01T11:14:00.002+08:00

how i wish i could be a sleeping beauty... :(

haven't been having good rest for the past few days....

have been feeling damn tired recently...

and i dunnoe why... :(

had breakfast with rx before coming to school today... (:

and today's lesson sux! :X cos...i just hate that faci...

she's good at teaching...but...i just dunn get it...and she's just too long winded...-.-

1 and half more day to endure with work and school...

and i will get to play and rest during this weekends! (:

YESS!...going for prawning tml...

can't wait...cos i haven been prawning for almost a year...

miss it so much...finally got time to prawn!!... :D

alright...gonna be back to work now....

and all i ask for is a C for grading today... (:

2010-06-29T16:05:00.002+08:00

celebrated darling's 20th birthday over the weekends @ ECP chalet and neverland... (:

chalet was PRETTY AWESOME...

had a whole afternoon of cycling...

and whole night of mahjong-ing and drinking....

however i almost died on sunday while working full shift at fusion...

and i literally broke my record of not sleeping for 2 whole days.... OMG!

damn power me...

alright...gonna go to work now...

BYE! (:

2010-06-23T06:02:00.002+08:00

THIS IS THE ACTION I REALLY FEEL LIKE DOING NOW!

WHY? why yet again you left me with another question mark?

izit another dramatic excuse that you wann my sympathy?

or yet another trap to make me fall for it?

why am i so affected by you?

i really dunn get it...

2010-06-20T05:24:00.003+08:00

went in to malaysia by car today... (:

it's my very first time going into malaysia by car...

and lucky me...that i managed to get thru the custom cos...

the malaysia's custom wrote on my passport to get my photo changed...

but...now they dunn do updates of photos...

therefore the only way to get a new photo is to get a new passport...-.-

damn waste paper lohx...

idiot! and waste money somemore....

you gotta pay 70 bucks to renew a passport lohx....-.-

anyway...went JUSCO a shopping mall a distance away from JB's custom...

the outer view of the mall looks like a factory but the inner view of the mall look like our vivo...

but i think it should be smaller than our vivo lahx... (:

cos..we didn't really walk around the whole mall...

we were damn hungry by the time we went in...

so...we hunt for food instead... (:

so...we had shabu shabu @ arashi... (:

the price was damn reasonable...

and of course the food was damn fresh and delicious... (:

i had this ice lime and lemon drink.... (:

their unagi chawamushi... if you love unagi you will definately love this cos...the unagi is damn fresh! (:

i had the seafood and meat set with kimchi broth...

and in this set there's fresh salmon which i really liked it! and the beef too ! (:

and the whole meal cost us only 100 plus RM...

my fren said that they also have this restaurant in singapore...

and i think if we gonna have the same thing it will also cost us about 100 SGD lohx...

hahax...so is affordable for us in malaysia! (:

after dinner...we went to buy ice cream back to sg..

but...by the time we got back home...

all my ice cream melted... :(

but the ice cream selling over there is super cheap!

after buying ice cream...

we headed back home to unload our stuff before meeting up again for WC...

went arab st for sheesha and watch soccer at the same time... (:

good that denmark won! (:

okayy...end of my fruitful sat night!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE! (:

2010-06-19T06:25:00.002+08:00

It's malaysia day again! (:

YUP. (: went into malaysia again last thurs...

with cherlyn, xueni,ice and annie (xueni's frens)

this time round we went beyond city square... (:

cos..we are not really familiar with JB so..everytime we go would only be city square...

hahax...but this time with xueni's frens around...

we went to some place for food...and holiday plaza for manicure & pedicure... (:

we could get to enjoy delicious ba kuet teh and duck meat with is just opposite each other... (:

this was the ice jelly thing we had....damn cooling and nice.. (:

the ma you chicken and ba kuet teh... (:

after eating...our main purpose of this trip of cos was to do our nails... (:

didn't take pictures of that place cos i was too busy choosing my design for my nails...

hahax... (:

TADAH!

my design for pedicure and manicure... (:

i am not really please of my manicure...

cos..i wasn't the design that i wanted... :(

i wanted the hello kitty design...but they run out of stock for the 3D hello kitty head...

so didn't do it on my hand...

well..but i still did it on my toes..

and they just look super super KAWAII!!!.... :D

love it to the max...

and i shall do it on my fingers the next time i go there and do it again... (:

And today...went marina country club @ punggol to celebrate xueni's 21 advance b'day... (:

the place was damn nice...

we got a room ourselves and in the room you get to sing, play mahjong and even play pool...

so..it was really a damn nice place...

but the place damn ulu...

didn't really enjoyed myself...cos..i should have....haix... nvm...

i shall look forward to next friday's neverland... (:

and also cherlyn's b'day chalet! :D

going to malaysia again tml!

another part of malaysia...

hopefully i can get in!

wish me luck ppl! (:

GOODNIGHT! (:

2010-06-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

OMG!!...haven been blogging for the longest time ever... :( well have been busy with the PC show during the weekends as well as fusion....

after that weekends...it's back to school time again...

and practically i couldn't wake up for 2 days of school...but luckily i did manage to wake up for today's UT...

today's UT was pretty straight forward...and could easily be understood...

so..hopefully i will score pretty well easily too...hahax... :P

i was damn sad today that i missed school...

first time ever in my RP life....hahax...probably because i love that module and the class and the faci too... :D

back to the PC show...well met alot of ppl there and was really having lots of fun working in a new company with new people around...and my job was the easiest and dangerous...

hahax...cos i was working as a cashier... (:

it's really fun...

and the best part is...every night after work i will be meeting darling they all for supper before heading home...as well as lunch breaks too.... (: thanks for the bubble teas, drinks, donuts and koi when i was working...

for the very first time i have endless supply of food during this kind of show lohx.... hahax....

if my iphone is still around, i would have been tweeting the whole day how fortunate i am to have you guys as my frens..

really and i do appreciate each and everyone of you...

you guys made me believe once again that true friends do exists... (:

OHH...and on the same weekend...it was lydia's 19th b'day...

had a small celebration @ one of BQ's pub...

hope you do enjoy gal! (:

didn't really spent a good time on your b'day...becos we all gotta work....

but i know we will always LOVE YOU! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Affordable 7 course meal that you can find in town! and that's TAO's

i didn't know this place until a fren of mine took me there for their 7 course meal...

and pardon for the lack of pictures...took some only cos...i was too tempted by the food..

the food there not only looks good...it taste good too! is really a must try! (:

i had this cold peach tea...it's really refreshing and smells good! (: it comes in hot ones too...

seems like a teapot but in fact is actually a fish soup that i had order

i find it damn unique and interesting.... (:

then it would be the main course....

i had this dunnoe what beef...is really nice.... (:

last but not least the desserts... the green tea moses and the brownie with vanilla ice cream.... (:

there were actually the starter and the salad before the soup....

but i didn't take any pictures down... :( too bad!..

and eating this course meal took us almost an hour lohx....

but...nonetheless...i did enjoy the meal very very much! (:

cos..is something new to me and is worth to try....and best of all worth the price! (:

ohh...and guess what?! i finally bought my book " At first sight " by nicholas sparks! (:

super happy...and i hope i will enjoy reading it just like how much i enjoyed the book " twenties girls" by another author lahx...hahax... (:

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE! (:

2010-06-08T06:17:00.003+08:00

have you ever imagine that when you are old....

and when you have suffered from amnesia...

your love one will be there staying with you...

hoping that you would remember the "us" you and him used to share....

reading "our story" that you had written and requested to be read to you when you knew the day of loss of memories would come.....

the real love...the never ending love thats forever......

quoted from the story.....

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough."

2010-06-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

haven't been updating my blog...

so..i shall update since is my off day today... :D

well...have been busy working ever since 1 June...

ended the 5 days work @ food fair quite early...cos..we managed to sell everything away...

hahax....and for the 3rd and 4th day..worked with cherlyn....

and that was our first time working together.... :D

during our break time....we managed to walk around the whole food fair and had lots of yummy food! (:

i had this mango beancurd

and we had this duck rice which i was craving for..... (:

besides working at fusion, i also managed to have time spent with these people.... (:

have been spending time with them for the whole of this week i guess...

we had our kbox session and pool on wed...

Friday..

worked at wisma ss in the morning before heading down to fusion and continue working till 5am...

then..cherlyn they all came down to find me while i was working....

i was actually damn tired and moody that day....

but thanks to their sudden accompany...

i felt much better...and i didn't really feel tired after that... (:

Saturday...

we went in to malaysia for singing session and taking of neoprint.... (:

i really had a fun day that day with lots of food maybe not much of singing lahx...hahax....

and we only paid like 46RM or lesser..

than we had kenny rogers before i head for work and they head home....

and today....we went into malaysia again just to dye hair...

and it was just the ladies and xin joined in too...

cos...she wanted to reborn her hair...

and i did mine...but the rest didn't...cos..they were too indecisive of whether to reborn or to dye what colour...-.-

and i wasn't really happy with the results too.... :(

all thanks to the stupid idea of dying my hair back to jet black...

and now...whatever light colour that i dye would not appear to be it is...i would be in darker shades.... :(

unless i bleach my hair...

which will be a killer to my hair...

haix....

BORING!

time really flies....

1st week of June is gone...and that means 1 week of holidays is gone...

and i only left with 1 week....and this 1 week will be a damn busy week..

and my only off day would be on wed...

cos...mon and tue i will be working at fusion..thurs - sun i will be working at the it fair...

and then...school will be starting again...

BORING!

but that's practically LIFE!...-.-

alright...gonna pamper myself a little now...

GOODNIGHT! (:

p.s : i wished i had a camera..so that i could capture every moment down and blogg every day....

hahax....and that every moment of life would be remembered... (:

2010-05-29T22:11:00.007+08:00

Thursday

was the last day of school....

and i went without sleeping on weds night after clubbing...

and that day was really a hectic day for me...

i had lessons in the morning...followed by a UT revision lecture till 6 plus..

reach home around 8 plus...and completed my RJ within half an hour..

before rushing down to wisma to fetch gfs off from work...

to fulfill our cravings for chili crabs...

we headed somewhere around tiong baruh for the chili crab...

cos...hw said it was known for serving delicious chili crabs...

and we ordered some other dishes as well... (:

Our chili crab! (:

see how happy they were eating the crab...hahax..

after that went gfs house for mahjong and sleepover till the next morning...

cos..i have to reach expo @ 11 for the food fair...

p.s : pictures grab from hw.... (:

Friday

first time working for the food fair or rather first time being in a food fair made me felt so excited!...

hahax...cos..there were like lots of delicious food around that i wanted to try!!....

but...there's too much that you can't possibly finish them all in a day i think not even within 5 days...cos...i will be there for all 5 days... (:

and my job was simple...and that was to promote probiotic tomatoes adn brinja...

hahax....and i kinda enjoy working there....

cos the people there were all very friendly... (:

after that...head down to pf to work..

and guess what...

my worst nightmare came...

i left a table with lights on from 10 plus to 1 plus without realising that the people that were playing on the table were gone long ago...

and i had to bear the table charge myself.... :(

it was really the most biggest mistake i ever made for the past 2 years working there... :(

Today

i was late for work..

but...the people there were kind enough and didn't scold me for being late...

just remind me to be on time tml and even offered to give morning calls... (:

today's crowd wasn't very good....

didn't really sold much today..

and i had these for lunch today...

mixture of fried food from dodo...

C recommended shark fins soup

and they kept me full for the whole day... (:

after work...had the mushroom soup in a bowl bread that i was craving and looking for...

cos..while i was working...i saw alot of ppl eating it..hahax...

tml...will be having the duck rice, smelly tofu and something else for tml... (:

cos...my fren tried the duck rice and said that it was delicious....

alright...i shall blog again soon...

cos...i am very tired now...and i have to wake up at 8 plus tml for the whole day....

GOODNIGHTS! :D

2010-05-26T21:18:00.002+08:00

slept the whole day today cos no lessons on weds...

that's why i always ♥ weds! (:

last night...watched dear John online before going to bed...

that story...was so much similar to me and J....

but...the people around us and the things happening around were so different which was why...

we couldn't stay together till now...

if we had...it din been a year that we got together....

i know you are worth the wait...

and i know i can wait....

but..the problem is...

do you still ♥ me?

going to drink and clubb now...

and i think i should club less...

if not i will get sick of clubbing....

hahax.... (:

2010-05-24T03:56:00.002+08:00

Just got back from work...gonna go to school later...

and i shall endure this week by going to school for the next 3 days... (:

after which it would be holidays again!!!....wee~~~

for this holiday i will be chiong-ing work...

working for this coming food fair, fusion and it show? maybe i dunnoe...cos...the person ask and yet to give me a confirmed reply yet...-.-

anyway hopefully more and more money will come in by then...

wee~~ and i shall save all this earnings for august's holiday...

so that i can go overseas like again!!!...

i love travelling and i hate staying in sg!

if you know me you should know...

hahax... :D

but...that means...i need to earn alot in order to enjoy that few days staying out of this city... :(

BORING!

ohh...i read an article today on the paper...

and it says that aliens do exists!

but...just that we are not aware about it...

it couldn't be just around us...anywhere, anytime!

so it ain't wrong that i always talk to aliens... (:

hahax...alright...i shall go and sleep now...

GOODNIGHT ALIENS AND PEOPLE! (:

2010-05-22T06:03:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!....i really need to work alot alot alot more than i thought to get those bills out of my way! :(

why is there nothing free in this world?

the food we eat needs money..

the things we wear needs money..

the cosmetics that i use needs money...

the skincare i need also needs money...

the transport i take also needs money...

in this world...nothing can be done without money... :(

i wanna travel i wanna have fun = i need to work alot alot alot more to earn for everything that i wann... :(

and...no matter how many many days i worked...

in the end all i get was that so little money...

and it will be all gone after going for a short vacation...-.-

working so hard and it just earn you that little to give yourself a break somewhere that's not here.... :(

i just hate it....

I HATE THIS! :(

2010-05-20T04:38:00.002+08:00

it's been half a year...

and you know i have been missing you...

and for the rest of my life i will keep missing you...

till the day we meet again....

dai yin mai?

2010-05-16T23:44:00.001+08:00

well...another week just past like again...

time really flies...UTs will be starting from this week...

and the following weeks will be our holidays... (:

humm...this week been quite a busy week for me or rather a packed one? hahax...

cos..i finally managed to meet up with people that i have not meet up with for months!

gosh! everyone is so busy with their own life...so do i! (:

have been going to school regularly ever since the start of the semester...

which is a good start! for me... (:

okayy...let me just briefly tell you what i have been up to for the last few days...

well...wed afternoon went into malaysia with cherlyn, val and xueni... (:

first...we had our brunch @ old town once we exit from the checkpoint...

and i ordered their noodle..which wasn't very nice....

and this huge root beer float! ♥

after that went to sing K (which was val's idea and she really loves singing..hahax...)

and the "kbox" we went was the same one i went in hongkong... (:

and we sang from 2plus all the way till 7plus for 20RM per pax...damn cheap! (:

after singing...we went to walk around the shopping mall...

and they brought to the so called bugis street,the air con version... LOLS!

but...seriously..the clothes there were like cheaper than what you can find in FEP!

and some were nice too... (:

and somehow somewhere we came across these scribes on the wall along the staircase....

i find it damn meaningful...and i think this somebody must have came across alot of craps in life just like me! if not this somebody wouldn't be so emo to write all these all the wall....

and lastly we ended our day eating our dinner @ secret recipes... :D

back from malaysia...i went butterfactory...

and that was the first and last time i club without draining myself with alcohols...

hahax..wasn't really enjoying that night...but thanks to my fren...

who's so willing to go club with me...and knowing that i didn't really wanna stay at home that night when michelle sudden change of mind of not going to club! -.-

then the next day...i wasn't able to get up for school like again... :(

and went to meet lydia and xuan for dinner @ cine..

and we went all the way to town just to eat KFC! hahax...

after that went back to xuan's place to play threesome majong...

and damn! i lost alot sia... :( ever since CNY i have been losing in majong...

and have never won a single match before... :(

well well...never mind...luck will change...is just a matter of time... (:

and friday...thanks to xin that i had time to catch up with yiying over dinner @ manhattan...

well...it was really long that we last seen and chat with one other....

had a great time with her... (:

the following...met up with her again..and xinrui and yilan... (:

had raja inn...(: which used to be one of my favourite eating place during sce sch life... (:

and had sometime exploring the changed tiong baruh...

cos..i haven't been there for near to 3 years after graduating from outram....

and after that went to the park...

and the park just brought up some sweet memories of me and B..

where...the simple love we once had....

and then back to the busy working time...

all the way till today 8pm..

was suppose to work like now...

but...most of the morning staff couldn't work today...

so my manager asked me and my sis to cover for the morning shift and then she will cover for my night shift..so i dunn have to work full shift..YESS!.. (:

and today's time really pass damn fast..maybe becos i was too busy to notice it due to the tournament that was held today...

and i was really happy that the regulars still recognise me even though i have been changing my hair style...hahax...

it's always good to have people remembering you even if they only seen you once..

cos...first impression is always very important... (:

alright...gotta go to bed...

cos..i dunn feel like studying now....for the my ut tml..

so...i rather sleep first then i get up alittle earlier to study tml... (:

GOODNIGHT ALIENS!

in case you dunnoe how am i looking now....yah...i am this cui now...hahax....

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